13 Weeks Out

I'm still plugging along and taking it one day at a time with this prep.
I am now 13 weeks out (really like 13 1/2, but go with it) from my first show and I'm still terrified.
I think that will only get worse the closer it gets. I can't imagine how much of a wreck I'll be backstage before walking out. All Oompa Loompa orange, in a tiny bikini, a pound of makeup, and scared shitless.
Mini vodka bottles, anyone? ;P
But ya know what? Being scared is a good place to be. That's usually where the magic happens... outside our comfort zones.
I keep telling myself that.

As of this morning the scale was back down to 139.8 lbs. Again, I'm not worried about my weight as much as my body fat percentage, which was 20% this morning.
That's a drop of .9% in two weeks. Meh, it's slowed a little, but that's okay.
I did take a trip to Maryland in that time period where I did really well with my diet, thanks to Tara, who knew my diet ahead of time and planned accordingly.
Failing to plan is planning to fail, peeps.
I had a cheat meal of crabcakes when I was there and they did NOT disappoint.
We relaxed, had a great workout, some great food, and even better conversation. 
I had such an amazing time with her and I'm thankful she came into my life. 
I'm still staying around 1700 calories a day, and have one scheduled cheat meal a week, which I really look forward to. 

My workouts have been kicking ass. I had a minor knee hiccup the past few days. A tight TFL had my left quad extremely tight and painful during my squats (which I was doing about 4 times a week). 
After rolling it out like crazy and digging it out manually with a lacrosse ball and taking a few days off squatting, I am back to normal.
I am deadlifting and squatting A LOT more than I have been in the past, along with a lot of shoulder/back work. 
Still doing cardio 2-3 times a week with my sprints. 

I'm just trying to trust the process and take it one day at a time. 
Pictures are saving me. 
When I don't feel like I'm making progress, I compare myself..... to.... well..... myself.
Because that's the only person I'm trying to be better than, is who I was yesterday.
Are you rolling your eyes at that cheesieness?? Because I totally am.
Eh, whatever. It's true.
My hips are slimming and I'm leaning out... slowly but surely! I am excited every day to wake up and make good decisions. It helps so much to be excited about the process and not dread it!
I don't see much difference here except for my tummy is starting to pull in a tad bit.
Progress is still progress.

We're taking the boys to Galveston this weekend for their first trip to the beach and they're super excited.
Big T will be FIVE on September 9th so we're making it like a birthday trip for him. 
PS- HOW DO I HAVE A FIVE YEAR OLD!?!?! What the hell happened!?!?!
Anyway, I still plan on getting in some workouts and sticking to my diet. 

Stay tuned because I've got some great stuff coming this week!!!
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MILF Monday: 15 Weeks Out

Another week has come and gone. 
I had a great week and busted my ass in the gym and in the kitchen.
I didn't have any slip ups and stayed on track with my diet. Does that mean I ate all clean, whole foods every single day? NO. It means I stayed within my macros and calories. 
I am eating about 1700 calories a day now. 1800 was proving a bit difficult for me to get to, so I dropped it down to 1700 and I'm functioning much better on this amount. 
But I'm tracking my macros, which allows me a little wiggle room for some little treats every now and then.
For more info on tracking your macros, go to www.iifym.com.
My personal ratio is 30% carbs, 35% fat, 35% protein. 
That's based on MY goals, etc. 
And right now that's working for me. 

Body fat percentage is down to 20.9% which is a 1.1% loss from last week.
Very happy with that. Even though my weight was up to 140.2, a gain of .8 lbs. 
I'm not worried about that, though. My focus is on body fat. 
I'm not going to give the disclaimer every time I post this picture... if you're offended by my back pose, keep ona steppin mmmkay. 

The biggest thing I'm learning so far is that you're going to have ups and downs. Days when you feel puffy or bloated, days when your abs aren't visible, days when you feel bigger, are up a pound or two, etc. It's all very mentally taxing to be doing absolutely everything in your power you can to improve and seeing minimal changes.
To help with this I take a lot of pictures.
I track my progress through it all, noting how I feel, my weight, measurements, etc. It's a great way to SEE what changes your body is making, regardless of if you notice them every day or not.
For example, I wasn't sure I'd made a whole lot of progress this week, until I saw this comparrison picture:
Left picture was last week, right is this week. That's a big freakin' difference for one week!
THIS is why I take progress pictures. It helps to see the hard work I'm putting in paying off. 
I'm feeling really good and still going strong!
I've hit some recent PRs that I'm pretty happy with and assures me that I'm getting stronger and better every day. :)
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MILF Monday: 16 Weeks Out from my first bikini competiton

Welp, I picked a show date. (insert wide eyed emoji here)
Remember about 10 months ago when I said I wanted to compete in a bikini competition?
Well it's really taken me up until now to actually 110% believe I COULD. 
And I'm still scared shitless. 
I needed to get into a better mindset. I needed to go through some ups and downs. I needed to still battle cravings and eat some bad foods.
I needed to be MENTALLY prepared as well as physically prepared.
And that took awhile.

I'm not quite sure what did it for me. I don't know what clicked in my head that I finally said "okay, Laughlin, it's time."
But it happened. 
I chose a show date, December 6th.
It is the North Texas Fit Expo in Arlington, Tx. which is about an hour from my house.
So it's a local NPC show. 
And it gives me 15 weeks to prepare.

Now... what does that mean?

That means a strict diet that my nutrition coach and I decide on that I have to stick to for the duration of prep. 
I pay for this meal plan, so I will not be sharing it with you VERBATIM.
I will let you know what I'm doing and how it's going, but exact meal plans I won't share out of respect for my coach. 
Basically my meals are made up of lean meats (lean beef, steak, turkey, chicken, fish), veggies (broccoli, snap peas, peppers, tomatoes, onions, asparagus, zuchinni), healthy fats (avocados, almonds, coconut oil, nut butter, eggs), healthy carbs (fruit, quinoa, rice, sweet potatoes).

Cheat meals? YES. I will have 1 cheat meal a week. Everything else is on point. Boring. Mundane. 
If a caveman couldn't have made it, killed it, or picked it, I probably won't be eating it. Unless it's a cheat OR it fits within my macros.
So I'll be sticking with approximately an 1800 calorie diet for the time being. 
This will be slowly cut, the closer I get, but never getting below 1400 calories/day.
I will have to take the fun out of eating, something I've really struggled with in the past. 
It will be eat to perform. And it's ONLY TEMPORARY.
I feel so mentally strong when it comes to my diet right now. 
I have committed to a date. An actual show. And I've got some things to prove. 
And I'm totally cool with it. It's pushing me harder and keeping me focused.

Currently I'm at 139.4 lbs. and about 22% body fat. I measure body fat % with fat calipers and will re-measure and evaluate every 2 weeks. 
I'm not shooting for a goal weight, just a goal body fat percentage, which is 14-15%. 
A new set of progress pictures like this one will be posted every two weeks to hold me accountable and show progress.
Yes, the back pose is a bit risque. But it's how you pose on stage and is solely to show progress moving forward and if you're uncomfortable looking at it, you'll probably want to get yourself out now because they'll just keep coming. 
Sorry not sorry.

The things I need to work on are bringing up my shoulders, glutes, and dropping some inches in my hips.
I will also be hiring a posing coach to get that down to a freaking science. 

When I originally made this goal, I just wanted to compete. But the more I think about it, the more I'd really like to place. 
Yes, that's ambitious. I will be competing with 20 year olds who have never had babies and don't have stretch marks or lose skin. And that's okay. 
And if I don't place, then I'll try again. 

I feel really strong lately. Mentally. Physically. Emotionally. 
I'm ready to tackle this goal head on and learn along the way.

If you've got any questions regarding my show date, training, etc., leave them in the comments and I'll 
get a Q&A post up answering them. 

I've got 15 more weeks and I'm the most determined I've ever been.
Time to kill it and knock another thing off the bucket list!

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Clean Chocolate Peanut Butter Protein "Fudge"

If you know anything about me, you know I LOVE sweets.
Which of course can be a tad problematic when I'm so regimented in my clean eating these days.
But, where there's a will there's a way, dammit. ;)
Pace yourself with these suckers... they're that good.
-2 scoops protein powder (I used Dymatize ISO-100 Cake Batter, but any flavor will do)
-3/4 cup Oats
-1/2 cup Natural CREAMY Peanut Butter
-1 1/2 Tbs Coconut Oil
-1 Tbs Cocoa Powder
-2 Tbs Unsweetened Vanilla Coconut Milk
-1/3 cup Pure Honey
-1 Tsp Vanilla Extract

Blend all the ingredients together in a blender or food processor. It gets very thick and you may have to scrape the sides a few times.
Once blended, lay out in a parchment paper lined 9x9 pan.
Put in fridge and chill. I let this chill overnight.
Cut into small squares.

NUTRITION INFO (per piece):
48 Cals
2.5g Fat
4g Carbs
5g Protein

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Fitness Photoshoot & Some Fun Stuff

A few weeks ago I had my first ever fitness photoshoot.
Now look, I'm not a fitness model or even aspiring to be one. 
This was just a goal to set for me, to focus on working toward something and having some good progress pictures. 
Chandra at Chandra's Collection Photography did them and they turned out so beautifully! 
I still have stretch marks and loose skin, but I'm not about to let that stop me from achieving my goals or being a reason to hide. 
After all, I earned those sonsofbitches. :)
I am strong. I am determined. And I'm confident. 
That's an amazing feeling.

Here are a few shots from the shoot.

Black and red outfit is from Affitnity
I LOVE how they are cut on the waistband, super flattering! 
Go check out their super cute workout gear! 
Guns n Roses tank from Kohls, UnderArmour bottoms.

Also? I'm in love with clever saying t-shirts. 
So when I found Thug Life Shirts I squealed. 
Here are a few others I want NEED:
And you know I've got a coupon code for you! "MAMA15" gets you 15% off your order!

Keep it comin' with the savings! "MAMALAUGHLIN" gets you these sweet pants (AND EVERYTHING!) for 20% off at Glyder Apparel
I PR'd on squats today. 150 lbs. for 2 reps.
Considering where I started, I'm pretty damn pleased with that. :)

Feelin' good and making progress.

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