I have had ups, I have had downs, and I have had plateaus galore.
The closer I get to my "goal weight" the more I'm realizing it's not enough.
I thought I'd be happy with my body at 135 pounds. Now, I'm not so sure.
While I still have a good 10 lbs. to go until I get there, 10 lbs. less isn't going to give me the image of myself I see in my head.
In my head I see this confident, thin woman. While I AM confident, I don't see myself as thin. Healthy? Yes. Thin? No.
Call it selfish, call it vain, call it what you will.
This is MY life and MY body and I want to be happy with it.
After having a baby your body isn't the same. Heck, mine's BETTER than before I had T, but I want more.
I don't want to squeeze into 8's and be happy with that. I know I can do better. I know my body is capable of more. I know I'M capable of more.
Why I chose 135 as a "goal weight" to begin with, I'm not really sure.
I think it's because that was the weight I was when I met my husband and I wanted to be that girl again.
But the truth is, even then, I wasn't happy with my weight. What makes me think I'd be happy with it now if I wasn't back then?
I am not saying 135 lbs is fat. It's not. I'm just saying that I think I can do better, and this is me re-evaluating my weight loss goals.
I'm upping the ante.
I'm getting back in full weight loss mode.
No more "I'm getting close to (previous) "goal" so I can slack a bit."
No sir.
My new goal?
125.
Now before you get all huffy on me and think that's too small (mom), hear me out.
Weighing 125 lbs. at my height of 5'6 would put my Body Mass Index at 20.17.
A HEALTHY BMI for my height is between 18.5 - 24.9.
Currently, at 146 lbs. my BMI is at 23.56.
That is on the high side of the BMI healthy range.
I'm sick of being on the high side of everything.
When I started this journey (at 198 lbs.) I had a BMI of 31.95- Obese Class 1.
OUCH.
So yes, I have come a long way, and I am proud of myself for it.
But I'm not done yet. I have 21 more pounds to go. I have already lost more than 50.
I know I have more in me. More sweat to give. I know I have it in me to be happy with my body.
So I'm going to get there, come hell or high water!
12 comments:
You are SO inspiring! I don't think I could tell you that enough. I think your goal is great and you will do great! You do look amazingly beautiful now, but wanting more is not selfish or vain. I believe you want to be better for yourself, and your family, and you deserve to achive your goal! Go get em Girl!!
I think that weight is a personal issue and a health issue, if any weight makes you happy as well as healthy then go for it!
You have done so well already, I know you can make it to your new goal! :) YOU CAN DO IT!
You have to aim for whats going to first make you healthy and then make you happy. YOU know yourself better than others. Good luck with your goals!
You go girl! I can totally understand wanting more. It's hard to just settle at a weight that you really aren't going to ultimately be happy with and a weight that you know you can do better than. You have come so far and 21 more pounds isn't that much further.
I believe you can do it!
Get it girl!! Proud of you for your goals and determination!
I'm proud of you!! It's time for me to get my lazy a$$ in gear! I would love to be 125, but I think realistic for the amount of effort I want to put forth is 135.
Trust yourself-you know what is right your you Mama!
If your willing to do the work then go for it! Your so inspiring!! I think you look fabulous :)
You are the only person that knows what is best for you. I am also on my WL journey and I have adjusted my goal several times. It's hard when people tell you what's best for you. I know people only care and don't want to see you (us) get to thin (or what they think is to thin)follow/listen to your body it will let you know what is best.
Wendy
I know what you mean. I have 15 more pds to go but as I look at myself I don't think that 15 is going to be enough. Guess I will see when I get there. I know you will do this. Look how far you have already come!
I think you can do it girly! My goal weight (being 5'5") is 128. It' really 125, but I don't think I'd be able to maintain 125 for any period of time so I'm working towards 128. I think if you get close and your body can't handle 125, it'll show you. As long as your healthy, and do it the right way, I'm all for pushing yourself!
Brandi:
I am so proud of you. You have shed all the weight and inspired your loyal followers! Just so you know, you are beautiful to me any size, because it comes from within. Keep up the good work and remember, a # on a scale is deceiving, if you feel good and are healthy, that is what matters! Oh, when I call and say I have some Oreo Cookie Ice Cream Dessert, remember your committment to being healthy......I'll eat your piece for you!
I love you,
Mom
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