being a size 6
seeing new muscles form
getting dressed in anything I please and not feeling massive
Instead, I now look like this
Given the circumstances (I'M PREGNANT) I know it isn't bad and it's all for the baby.
But I still have a hard time dressing myself in the morning.
I change a hundred times before I feel comfortable in anything.
I frequently say out loud "I look fat!"
I may or may not say this in front of the hubs just so he can say "you're not fat, you're pregnant".... sometimes a little reassurance is needed.
But at least I'm still doing this
so there's THAT...
I really tried to convince myself that I wasn't going to freak out at weight gain and my body changing with this pregnancy, and let me tell you, that's been harder than I thought.
The first place I go when I gain is OUT. My hips widen. I hate it.
I don't know if that's because my body automatically thinks I'm pregnant and is preparing me for labor or what, but IT.SUCKS.
Seeing my stomach change from its once flat state that I worked my ASS off for, to this round housing unit, is tough.
I am not worried about losing the weight, I know I can do it.
But I also know how hard I had to work to do it the first time and I'm going to have to work just as hard or harder this time.
I'm trying to keep a positive attitude about it, but it's tough.
Yes, I do feel a HELL of a lot cuter with this pregnancy than I did with my last... but I still feel fat. I didn't think I would this time.
When I start to get down about the weight aspect of it, I am immediately reminded with a firm kick (from Little T) that this is not about me, it's all about HIM.....
19 weeks with Big T
That's actually one of my better pictures.
18 weeks with Little T
There's ALWAYS a silver lining.
And just to show you what a little stink my child is...
Gotta love him though.