11.19.2012

Route 66 Marathon Recap

The gun went off for corral 'D', the corral I was in, and I walked to the Start line behind thousands and thousands of runners.
The corrals are based on how fast you're going to supposedly finish the race.
I had stated I'd finish in 2 hours and 20 minutes.
I was wrong.

I crossed the Start line and pushed start on my Garmin and was off. Running. Pacing myself as best I could. Listening to the thousands of runners feet hitting the pavement all around me. It was cold and I tried to just focus on moving one foot in front of the other.

At not even mile marker 1, I'm guessing around a quarter mile, the pain started creeping in. I could feel it building and getting more intense. I was pissed and didn't want to stop. I tried to run through it. I just couldn't do it.
It was too much. So I stopped to walk. Not even at mile one. And I was pissed. And frustrated. And disappointed. But mostly just mad.
Mad that this was my 2nd half marathon and I was supposed to be faster and better than my 1st. The one I didn't walk ONCE in. The one I finished in 2 hours and 35 minutes in. The one I ran 5 months postpartum with my second baby!
But there I was, 7 months later, about 20 lbs. lighter, so much faster, yet, with not as strong a body.
Mentally I wasn't prepared for what I was going to go through in that race.
Physically, I had it in the bag... or so I thought.

I walked for most of miles 1-7ish.
I thought SEVERAL times about bowing out. I looked for medical carts along the route. But then I thought of how disappointed I'd be in myself if I didn't finish that race. If I never got that medal. I've never been a quitter, and I wasn't about to start. 

I continued to update you all live via Instagram and Facebook with my issues. What I was going through, how I was feeling, the pain, when I was walking, and when tears were streaming down my face.

And through all that, I got so many encouraging words from you all.
When tears would start to fall, I'd read a few more of your comments and they'd keep me going.
Your support and encouragement helped me finish that race.
You telling me I was inspiring you at that very moment, kept me moving toward that finish line.

Here is what I updated you all with along my race:
 

With every update I got so much support from you all.
It's like you were right there running with me, encouraging me along the way.
Because of YOU GUYS I was able to finish that race when all I wanted to do was quit.
I cried through most of those 13.1 miles. Tears poured down my face as I thought of how far I've come and all the people I've been able to help and inspire.
I thought of my dad and how he always taught me to give 110%.
You may not be the very best at what you do, but as long as you try your hardest, that's all that matters.
I was getting passed left and right by runners in that race.
And I walked over half of it. I jogged when I could, but when Whitney found me on the course and walked with me, something clicked.
After she left me I began to run.
And I don't know if it was because I was used to the pain, or that it was less intense, or I just had that extra push and encouragement, but I ran. For miles 7 1/2-13.1. I ran. Through pain.
It wasn't excruciating anymore. Maybe it's because I wasn't focusing on it. Maybe I had a little more of that "help" I've experienced before. But I ran those 5 1/2 miles. Tears streaming down my face. And now, I was passing people.
The "walkers group" I'd been with for the past few miles, I began to pass.
I'd pat people on the back and give them a thumbs up when I'd see they were struggling.
I'd say "good job!" to people I'd notice with no earphones in.
I tried to pay it forward during that race.
To my followers, supporters, fans, friends, and my family.
To strangers.
To anyone that would listen.

Because I was out there. Running through pain. Digging deep for the will to JUST.KEEP.GOING.

I didn't PR in that race.
I didn't accomplish my time goal.
I didn't accomplish my goal of not walking at all.
But I finished.
And I finished with pride in my heart.

And I again felt that amazing feeling you get entering the chute. When I saw my friends and The Hubs at the finish line cheering me on, with signs. And I powered through and crossed that finish line at 3 hours and 2 minutes. Only 27 minutes slower than my first half marathon when I'd ran the entire thing.

I want to thank each and every one of you for all of your support and kind words.
They not only helped me finish the toughest run of my life, but have picked up my spirits along the way.

I hope that in some way I was able to inspire you through that struggle.
That maybe you now know that ANYTHING is possible, you've just got to have some heart and DIG DEEP!


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66 comments:

Courtney @ Journey of a Dreamer said...

Way to go, Mama!! It isn't the "best" races we have that give us the most satisfaction... it's the ones we fought for. If it had been easy the whole time that medal wouldn't mean so much to you. You are an inspiration and I'm so proud of you! Now - are you going to come to STL to run the half with Holly, Melanie and I?!

Sarah said...

Great job! So proud of you. Thank you for being such an inspiration.

RachelSteck said...

You did it! You are amazing!!

Lisa said...

Way to go!!! Be happy in what you did and don't beat your self up.. You did better the us that were sitting on the couch! <3

Ms Mae's Mommy said...

seriously just read that with tears in my eyes, thank you. I just signed up for my first 5k... and I have strong behind me because of you!

Emily said...

You are amazing and I am so proud of you! Even if you didn't PR, you did it! That is awesome.

Kari said...

Congrats on finishing Mama! I ran a half over the weekend too, and it was not my best race. I went in thinking I was going to PR, but instead hit the freakin' wall at mile 10! Grr. Reading your messages on Sunday reminded me of just how far I have come. Thank you for updating throughout the race because you were inspiring people! I hope that your knee gets better soon! There will always be other races for you to get out there and get that PR in!

Catie @ Catie's Corner said...

Brandi you rock!! Who cares what your finishing time was, you did it! You did it while I sat on my ass at home and did nothing. I hate running and you've inspired me to get out there and just do it. You are awesome! =) You should feel soo proud of yourself and all that you've accomplished.

Have a great week! Hope your knee isn't too sore today.

~ Catie

Mrs C said...

**Clears Giant Lump in Throat** Welp, you did again! Here I am all smiles and grasping on every word and I get to the end when your friends and The Hubs are at the finish line and the tears start to flow. How FREAKIN amazing are you?? I mean seriously, you must be some kind of freak cuz you can't possibly be human!!! I was glued to Instagram waiting for constant updates and I most definitely gave a "YES!! " and a booty-smacking Gallup when I saw the pic pop up with you and your medal. God totes gave you the *Berries* of a Man and stopped you all up in the heart, beauty, willpower and strength of a WOMAN!! So proud of you, Yo!!!

Kate said...

You are so strong. Way to stay with it and Just. Keep. Going. I wish I'd been there to hear you speak and to cheer you on!

Mama Stacy said...

You are absolutely amazing! I followed you all day yesterday!! Congrats mama!

lesley cardwell said...

once again mama...you have made me cry...i have lost 30 lbs because you are so inspiring...i stalk your blog everyday...lol...i just want to thank you

familyimaid said...

Awesome job!

hfbarr said...

I just got chills reading that. Trying not to cry at work. You are awesome! I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving with your adorable family. You are blessed. Take some time and let that body rest up. You deserve it.

Lauren said...

I am so proud of and thankful for you!!

I know you're really busy, but I posted a blog entry today talking about how much you've influenced my weight loss journey. If you have a minute to read it, I would be so grateful!

http://laurensgettinglittler.blogspot.com/

Again, thank you so much for putting yourself out there to influence all of us!! You have helped more than you'll ever know.

Melissa said...

You are awesome! Sometimes things don't always go as we have planned, but you totally ROCK for never giving up! I am going to keep this post in mind today when I go for a run :) Thanks for always being an inspiration!!

Samantha said...

Way to just keep going! That's what the weight loss journey and being healthy is all about anyways. It's digging in when you're tired of counting those calories or points one more blasted time. It's putting on your shoes to go for a run when you really would rather lay on the couch. And it's digging down in your heart to give it all you got when your body hurts so bad.

So go on with your bad ass self!

Karen C. said...

Wow! So proud of you! Congratulations on finishing! You are a big inspiration to us all and such a positive role model. Thank you :)

Kim said...

You are A-MAZING! If you didn't already inspire us to the max, you certainly have now! I was glued to my Instagram feed waiting for each and every update and cheering you on from a distance! I am so impressed that with pain at mile 1 you were able to push through and finish the whole entire race! You are such a hero to so many of us! Thanks for what you do! Congrats on your 2nd Half under your belt!!

Karen C. said...

Wow!! So proud of you!! Congratulations on finishing the race. You are a big inspiration and such a positive role model. Thank you :)

Amy said...

Well done, mama! Finishing the race after getting off to a painful start is effing badass and shows how strong you are, mentally as well as physically.

Jaclyn N Lil M said...

So proud of you for finishing even though you had so much pain in your knees!! You are still an inspiration!!

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Tanya said...

Amazing strength you have! Congrats!

Alison Farnham said...

You're amazing. Truly an inspiration. You finished, which is so much more than others can say.

I followed you on instagram on Sunday and it was a treat to see your support group and how you pulled through and finished strong. Congrats on your second 1/2 marathon finish!!

Elizabeth said...

I'm so proud of you. The 'doing it' part is more important than how perfectly you can do it. That's what I've learned from this post. Thank you mama!

ATrailLife said...

You are amazing!! So inspirational. Thank you for sharing it all - the good and the bad!!

sarahalicea said...

You are simply AMAZING! I just recently started following your blog and LOVE IT! I had tears in my eyes while reading your blog! So proud of you! This race you just ran will forever stay with you and you will remember it many times when you have to dig deep and find your strength! You should be so proud!

Meg said...

Thats so awesome congrats Mama! :) You're a rockstar!!

I do have a quick random question for you. Do you use the chest strap with your garmin? If so all the time or just big races? Do you notice a big difference and is it hard to run with it on? Im thinking of getting the same one and was curious on your thoughts.
Thanks!!

bekahbella said...

I was in tears by the end of this entry! Amazing job!

Michelle said...

Damn, I'm crying at work. I want that feeling of finishing too. But I'm scared to try. You may have just pushed me out of the nest with this one.

Nadine Brownfield said...

You are awesome! Congrats on finishing the race and working through the pain. Truly inspiring!

Carie said...

I had tears when you posted that you had finished it running, even slowly, you were running. My heart swelled up so much thinking about how easy it would've been to just stop, but you didn't. You kept digging and digging... I am so, so proud of you! You have inspired me in many ways! I have yet to run a half marathon yet, but when I do, I'm going to think of you and how you never gave up. It really means a lot that you finished the race! Way to go Mama L! You're a rockstar!

MrsChaps said...

We are all so very proud of you!!!! No matter what, you continue to inspire all of us. and you have shown us that no matter what obstacles are in our way, we need to overcome them!

karen mora said...

you rock! you are amazing and continue to inspire us :) I'm not gonna lie, I was checking my IG every few minutes to check for any updates from you. hope you get your knee problem fixed! best wishes <3

Lauryn Roth said...

Dude you almost made me cry. I totally understand. You ROCK! Good job finishing and NOT taking the easy way out!!

undomestic mama said...

It's still inspiring that even though you wanted to give up and quit because you couldn't run, you stuck with it and walked. Think about all the good lessons your sons are learning from you too...and us readers are learning from you too, of course!

Nancy Clue said...

I am so proud of you! Glad that you could draw inspiration and motivation from so many others who look to you for the same. FUCKING ROCK STAR BITCH! Glad that I got to meet you this weekend!

Shelly@Shelly No Belly said...

So so so proud of you!!

Runner Mom said...

You finished....period! You know how in life we often find that our greatest lessons and accomplishments stem from our biggest flops, failures, pains, crushing moments.. etc....Now go heal that knee and move forward with your head held high- Just like I said so many posts ago- Run if you can, Walk if you have to, Crawl if you must...just finish! And you did. No need to dwell or be concerned with your time or the goals you didn't achieve, if anyone can move past this bump in the road- it's gonna be Mama Laughlin! Some of the best runs I've ever finished were the ones I was blinded by my own tears- both tears of frustration and pain- but I finished regardless and I found a way to move forward. You've got this! Awesome job lady!! Movin' forward!

Sam said...

What you did was amazing - most people would of given in to the pain, but you kept going and you finished. You did it for yourself but you also did it for all of us, you truly are an inspiration. That is why I come here day after day. You inspire me, you keep it real and you make me laugh my ass off on a daily basis. Thank you for taking us along on your journey!

Pops said...

All I can say is " I am Proud of you". Proud to be your father, proud to have instilled ethics in you and proud that you have grown to be the woman you are.

I know you kindly delete most of my smartass comments, but I leave you one last word of old man wisdom.

"Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If you quit, however, it lasts forever."

Mom Taxi Julie said...

arf, sitting here crying after reading! I read a lot of your instagrams while you were on the course. WTG for finishing!!

Kate said...

bawling my eyes out reading that!! So proud of you Mama, you make my heart swell :) <3 love kate mcculloch from fitcamp! <3

Emilie McAlister said...

Tears are streaming down my face right now because I'm so proud of you! Your determination, your strength and your heart inspire me every day to continue on my own journey! What you did this weekend though - that was just awesome!
ps, I'm crying even harder now because I just read what your Dad posted!

Crystal Vasquez said...

Amazing!!! I wont even sign up for a 5k because I know I can not run even a mile! I keep saying I will start training and sign up for one, but I dont! If you can finish a half marathon with pain I can for sure sign up and walk and finish a 5k!!! You got this and you will get better! Take care of that knee!!:)

Kristen said...

You're such an inspiration! I struggled A LOT during my 2nd Half... the Rock 'n Roll here in Dallas this past April. Cramps, heat, you name it... I finished much slower than my first one, but I finished and I couldn't have felt prouder crossing that finish line! My 3rd half is coming up on December 9th... the Dallas Half Marathon and I feel so prepared for this one. I hope it goes much better.

If you ever want a running partner, I'd love to meet you... always looking for people to run with and it seems like we live pretty close! :)

Jamie Danielle said...

We are all very proud of you. You didn't give up. You pushed as hard as you could. That's amazing! You're a true inspiration to me & a lot of others.

Anna & Kirby said...

Wow awesome post... Awesome race...awesome inspiration!

April Rowell said...

Started reading through your story and I have to tell you.....I rejoined the gym today. Gotta get this weight off and I'm gonna think of your story for inspiration. Had a baby 4 1/2 months ago and it's time to get serious about shedding this weight.

Lindsey said...

This brought tears to my eyes. What a story of perseverance! You inspire me all the time, but particularly today. I'm so proud of you! You make me want to be better at everything I do <3

Amber said...

Amazing. This post made my want to cry! You really are an inspiration, and I'm so glad your friends could make you realize you can do it!

Gorgeous Garcia said...

This post made me cry!! YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!!! YOU ROCK!!!!! :)

Keep being an inspiration to all of us!!!!!

SH said...

I definitely followed your run through Instagram! You are an inspiration!

thehartungs.blogspot.ca

April Sheppard said...

Very inspiring! Way to go! Just think, when your all healed up & decide to run another one, you'll blow your old times out of the water! We all knew u could do it & u make us so proud. Now,rest up & get better sister! <3 April

Connie Howard said...

I'm at my desk with tears streaming down my face. I am so proud of you. You are the reason I haven't quit this journey so many times now. You are truly and inspiration. And next time I want to quit, this will make me push and dig deep that much more. Thank you! You are amazing!

mommytothree said...

Way to go girl! It may not have been the best time but you still had huge balls and got through it! You are an inspiration a shining example of mind over matter! Don't ever doubt your ability because this race showed how strong you are. You lived you motto "no excuses!" You are someone that I look up to or I guess look down at I'm 5'7" tall. Ha! You keep me going when I think I can't. I'm running more and better than I did before I had my second baby. I maybe heavier now but I'll get there. You have egnited that spark of hope in me! I can not thank you enough for your truth and honesty in your journey that has forced me to really look hard at what I was doing wrong and what was standing in my way! You rock girl! And I'm proud of you for not giving up!

Mandy said...

So proud of you! You did awesome!! I kept checking FB and instagram for your updates- thank you once again for sharing your life with us!!!

Brandy said...

Mama,

You are such an inspiration! I have been down on myself lately. I had 25 treatments of radiation and they told me I couldn't lose any weight during it, so I gained 4lbs. It is so discouraging. I have read this post with tears streaming down my face. Thank you!!!! I am getting back on the horse and I am determined to lose these last 75 ish pounds!!!!!!!!

Emily said...

Way to go Mama L!!! I know that you are a strong lady and you wouldn't stop for a miniscule amount of pain. I know that the pain you felt was killer and you are a super strong lady for finishing that race! I would have been proud for you even if you had to walk the entire thing! You are awesome!

Miranda said...

CONGRATULATIONS! You really, really have something to be proud of... You will figure this knee pain thing out and I have no doubt that you will start smashing records left and right. Can't wait to watch/read about it! YOU GO GIRL!

Carolyn said...

All I could think, having suffered a few of my own running injuries recently, is "I hope she didn't permanently hurt herself for the sake of the blog."

Now that you've finished - please take some time to heal! Sounds like PT may be in order. Gotta get that knee under control before conquering a full. :-)

Carrie said...

I'm so freakin' proud of you!! It takes balls to even participate in a huge race when you're in pain...let alone finish it and run a good deal of it! And look at your times!! I have a friend who RAN a half and didn't get your time. You were only 27 minutes behind when you RAN!! That's amazing!! Keep up the good work. And like a pp said, get some rest!!

Adrieanna said...

You freakin inspire me lady! Thanks for posting the good, bad and ugly,as well as the beautiful. You rock!

Molly said...

So incredible that you finished strong in the race. Sad we missed it- homesick mommy guilt is a bitch.

I had such a great time this weekend with all you ladies. Loved getting to chat with you and Shawn Saturday evening!

Katie said...

Way to go mama!! You are such an inspiration and amazing! :)

Shannon said...

Only 27 minues slower than when you ran the whole thing? Holy crap- that's awesome!! Your willpower amazes me. I really respect that. Way to go!!